[ Holding her face in his hands, he tugs his head back and tries to find her dark eye, to hold it firmly and reiterate to her the truth. ]
Because I am also a man like that, remember?
[ It frustrates him, in a way, to have the things he is capable of overlooked, or forgiven, or told he can change and grow. Certainly he cannot! Atonement, to him, is a task bestowed upon him that he must experience to keep his given word. He feels for the women he had tormented and slaughtered, because he knows what kind of world he had created and what they underwent because of him — but, he doesn't regret what he did. He doesn't feel sorry for anyone, nor pity their circumstances or endings.
He is complex, and can work with Hayame toward the end they want, befriend her and teach her and challenge the same opponents as her — but, he cannot allow her to think that he is different than creatures like John Gaius, or Silco, or Voryn Dagoth, or Sebastian Michaelis. ]
I am just the one who believes in you.
[ Slowly, he does shake her head in response to her question. No, he doesn't think that of her. No, he doesn't think all she can do is kill. She is not cruel, just hard, in his eyes. Her hardness a defensive measure, something she has known and not one inch of him wants her to lose her hardness or honor, just adapt it. ]
Of course you could. You have the power to stay your hand. Were I to ask you, I bet you would have done it — but, not one part of me is able to ask you to do that. [ No matter what he says that sounds like him believing in peace, or another course, he speaks only to be able to lay a better, inescapable trap. Offering a way to broker peace and diplomacy was not a betrayal of his nature, because those who thought the worst of him were right to. Naturally, he'd want to use it to make the war grander. ]
It is decision I would have left to you, alone. With my encouragement, but never my command.
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Because I am also a man like that, remember?
[ It frustrates him, in a way, to have the things he is capable of overlooked, or forgiven, or told he can change and grow. Certainly he cannot! Atonement, to him, is a task bestowed upon him that he must experience to keep his given word. He feels for the women he had tormented and slaughtered, because he knows what kind of world he had created and what they underwent because of him — but, he doesn't regret what he did. He doesn't feel sorry for anyone, nor pity their circumstances or endings.
He is complex, and can work with Hayame toward the end they want, befriend her and teach her and challenge the same opponents as her — but, he cannot allow her to think that he is different than creatures like John Gaius, or Silco, or Voryn Dagoth, or Sebastian Michaelis. ]
I am just the one who believes in you.
[ Slowly, he does shake her head in response to her question. No, he doesn't think that of her. No, he doesn't think all she can do is kill. She is not cruel, just hard, in his eyes. Her hardness a defensive measure, something she has known and not one inch of him wants her to lose her hardness or honor, just adapt it. ]
Of course you could. You have the power to stay your hand. Were I to ask you, I bet you would have done it — but, not one part of me is able to ask you to do that. [ No matter what he says that sounds like him believing in peace, or another course, he speaks only to be able to lay a better, inescapable trap. Offering a way to broker peace and diplomacy was not a betrayal of his nature, because those who thought the worst of him were right to. Naturally, he'd want to use it to make the war grander. ]
It is decision I would have left to you, alone. With my encouragement, but never my command.