She... made a request of me. And she feared that it would be dangerous for me to go alone, since I can't fight, so she thought it best that I go with other Shard-Bearers.
[ in the realm of the physical, Rudbeckia is trembling, and she cannot hide this from the Communion. ]
I know I'm useless. I know that better than anyone. I'm weak, and cowardly, and foolish. [ this is bedrock certainty in her mind, foundational in its truth. she isn't ashamed of it, although a bitter taste spreads on Set's tongue. there's nausea churning in her gut, and the next words she speaks are painful, like drawing shards of glass from her skin. ] But I... W-When I speak to monsters, they can understand me. They're drawn to me, and... sometimes I can get along with them.
[ she thinks of those that didn't: cowering from a dullahan, a gargoyle. but she also thinks of something soft and warm, a protective embrace. what she's scared of isn't the monsters—it's the act of telling this to Set, what his reaction might be, how others could try to use her if they knew. ]
I've never... told anyone. But Cetina wants me to...
[ her heartbeat has become deafening; she trails off, trying to catch her breath. ]
no subject
[ in the realm of the physical, Rudbeckia is trembling, and she cannot hide this from the Communion. ]
I know I'm useless. I know that better than anyone. I'm weak, and cowardly, and foolish. [ this is bedrock certainty in her mind, foundational in its truth. she isn't ashamed of it, although a bitter taste spreads on Set's tongue. there's nausea churning in her gut, and the next words she speaks are painful, like drawing shards of glass from her skin. ] But I... W-When I speak to monsters, they can understand me. They're drawn to me, and... sometimes I can get along with them.
[ she thinks of those that didn't: cowering from a dullahan, a gargoyle. but she also thinks of something soft and warm, a protective embrace. what she's scared of isn't the monsters—it's the act of telling this to Set, what his reaction might be, how others could try to use her if they knew. ]
I've never... told anyone. But Cetina wants me to...
[ her heartbeat has become deafening; she trails off, trying to catch her breath. ]