[ she listens to his assessment of the other Meri, but her mind lingers on the first declaration. she won't have to declare herself useless; people will realise it themselves, in time. but still... ]
... This ability isn't as useful as you'd think. It's not like there's a guarantee that a creature will listen to me, not any more than a human would.
[ there is a definite feeling that Ruby wishes to be unclear about this next part. the words stick to her, and she peels them off with trembling fingers; the instant they leave her grasp, she feels sick with fear, and desperately wants to take them back. she's being too bold, too honest, too demanding, too vulnerable— ]
I know that this isn't something I can expect to keep entirely secret. But, if I can... I don't want it to be well-known either. People will expect more than I'm capable of, and I don't want to disappoint them...
[ there is a wordless addition, too, that she allows to escape her stranglehold and cross the Communion: she won't protest being treated as a tool, but she does not want to be a weapon. if someone ever demands her to command these monsters like an army, she will take the inevitable beating a hundred times over instead. ]
cw abuse. you did not see my phone misclick
... This ability isn't as useful as you'd think. It's not like there's a guarantee that a creature will listen to me, not any more than a human would.
[ there is a definite feeling that Ruby wishes to be unclear about this next part. the words stick to her, and she peels them off with trembling fingers; the instant they leave her grasp, she feels sick with fear, and desperately wants to take them back. she's being too bold, too honest, too demanding, too vulnerable— ]
I know that this isn't something I can expect to keep entirely secret. But, if I can... I don't want it to be well-known either. People will expect more than I'm capable of, and I don't want to disappoint them...
[ there is a wordless addition, too, that she allows to escape her stranglehold and cross the Communion: she won't protest being treated as a tool, but she does not want to be a weapon. if someone ever demands her to command these monsters like an army, she will take the inevitable beating a hundred times over instead. ]