[ In his moment, he feels like he understands the Imprints a little more. It’s only a guess at best, since there’s nothing but his own feelings as justification for his theory, but… Much like the Souls they’re matched with, maybe there’s part of imprinting that cuts through to the truth of things too. Why would he imprint with people that have been quite violent to him, if not that? He’d just assumed it was the parts of himself that were deeply fucked up, but…
No, it’s Set and Silco both. As he’s gotten to know both of them, it reveals more similarities than he’s liked. Imprinting may not simply be a bond, but a mirror.
It’s one he doesn’t want to look into. ]
It’s not.
[ He does understand Set better now. Part of him wants to go for his usual tried and true deflection. When something is a little too personal or emotional, then he just turns it towards the other person. It’s never dishonest, because he does care openly and deeply for others, but he just doesn’t want that same thing turned his way.
However… That’s the mirror aspect, isn’t it? He doesn’t think that would work on Set. Because of this awful, shared feeling, he knows personally how that tactic doesn’t work. There’s another delay before he replies. ]
Thank you for telling me, at least. Maybe you’re not kind or good, but that doesn’t mean any of that was deserved. It’s cruel. I believe you. And I won’t doubt you.
[ It seems like his strategy of deflecting, but there’s an earnestness here that isn’t clear in text. For most, he would stop at that. But for once… He continues. ]
My entire life has been unhappy, to be honest with you. From the moment I was born, I wasn’t wanted, so abandonment and betrayal are practically my childhood friends. But it was easier then because there was no pretense about it. My mother, my siblings, anyone I ever met made it clear. I was unloved.
So, you can see why I fell for Lycaon. Even if I knew he didn’t trust me to be better than my circumstances… I was still young and desperate. It blinded me.
It’s not a mistake I’ll make twice. That’s all I want to say.
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No, it’s Set and Silco both. As he’s gotten to know both of them, it reveals more similarities than he’s liked. Imprinting may not simply be a bond, but a mirror.
It’s one he doesn’t want to look into. ]
It’s not.
[ He does understand Set better now. Part of him wants to go for his usual tried and true deflection. When something is a little too personal or emotional, then he just turns it towards the other person. It’s never dishonest, because he does care openly and deeply for others, but he just doesn’t want that same thing turned his way.
However… That’s the mirror aspect, isn’t it? He doesn’t think that would work on Set. Because of this awful, shared feeling, he knows personally how that tactic doesn’t work. There’s another delay before he replies. ]
Thank you for telling me, at least. Maybe you’re not kind or good, but that doesn’t mean any of that was deserved. It’s cruel. I believe you. And I won’t doubt you.
[ It seems like his strategy of deflecting, but there’s an earnestness here that isn’t clear in text. For most, he would stop at that. But for once… He continues. ]
My entire life has been unhappy, to be honest with you. From the moment I was born, I wasn’t wanted, so abandonment and betrayal are practically my childhood friends. But it was easier then because there was no pretense about it. My mother, my siblings, anyone I ever met made it clear. I was unloved.
So, you can see why I fell for Lycaon. Even if I knew he didn’t trust me to be better than my circumstances… I was still young and desperate. It blinded me.
It’s not a mistake I’ll make twice. That’s all I want to say.